Looking back, I had no mind of my own. I did whatever my parents told me and I tried to do everything for my parents so they would be proud of me. Initially this sounds very proper and noble. But in reality it made me too dependent on others. I had no preferences and opinions. To make matters worse, my self esteem and self worth were a mess because it was too tightly integrated with other people's approval. Negative feedback or constructive criticisms were interpreted as personal attacks which sunk me lower than I already was. This critical flaw took more than thirty years to unwind. Better late than never, right?
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