Second Guessing

Thinking back, another thing I did constantly during my youth was second guessing.  It caused a huge amount of stress and it worked its way into all facets of life.  In a social gathering I replayed jokes and anecdotes to make sure they were funny enough to be said.  Sometimes I still ended up saying nothing and most of the time it came out flat.  Leaving me to spiral and second guess why I even said anything in the first place.  This also spread into exams, during and after the fact.  If I was unsure, I would go back and forth endlessly.  I would be so stressed and drained.  When I got the test back, I would play Monday morning quarterback and beat myself silly for all the mistakes I could have avoided.  This endless cycle is finally easing up now.  Thankfully.